My Fun Times Lately

April 30, 2026

Old dm music , Music in cambu+ceri car
Hiiiiie everyone... I've had a really good past few days. I met up with my old online friend Cambu ... I was just looking over our old DM's. we had been messaging since 2022 because she had posted a note that one of my favvv fav fav ever ppl wrote.. andBoy how excited I was to meet someone who shared this interest ! And to think today we were hanging out in real life . . talking about the same things . Friendship and fun are well just about the best things I can even think of. I am truly so overjoyed to have had this rare and wonderful experience ... The other day We went to the zoo together, and Oh I should mention her girlfriend was there too. She has lived in the same city as me all along! Which is why Cambu came to visit from states away. And now I have a new friend to regularly see.. Goodness how exciting. And anyways yes when we went to the zoo they had brought me this fancy matcha drink that was layered to look like grass and the sky.. what a kind gesture. Such kind and lovely people my my my. And then today we went to a thrift store and my favorite art supply store and a cat cafe. When Cambu dropped me off to say goodbye for real I ran back to the car and gave her one of my bracelets... I felt it was important to have physical proof of the time we spent together. A a aa a aa a I just feel so blessed. the stars really did align.
And yes I did other things too even this week.. All the more enjoyable. I am happiest when my days are filled, particularly with a variety of things and people. I was very happy to hear a friend wanted to rant to me earlier in the week and so I made plans to allow them to do so the following day. After zoo with cambu and gf(ceri) I got burgers with friend+other friend. rant ensued. felt closer,. Walked around a mall for like 30min before they closed and then target and dollar store How teenage! Was so fun . And to top it all off I have a fun epic sleepover planned with another friend on fridayy.. so excited 4 that. hoping to get wine drunk. and maybe even plans with yet aanother friend to go to a toy storeee!!!! Friiick. I love everything. AND I started a new job Thank Fuck because I need money Badly. its so good for me to have a job and stay busy. annnddd upcoming picnic and birthday party and another birthday in june Im so excited to put together gifts. Oh sheieeiiddt I have to send salem a card. Well thats just about it dear reader thanks for coming back Remember life is always good if you look for it . like daniel johnston said true love can only find you if you're looking .And love is everywherreee so ya .Xoxox bye

hello woorld!

April 24, 2026

my first website diary entry .. how thrilling :) I am not so sure of what I'm doing here. I mostly made this because of some encouragement from friends... but I am really enjoying html and css. who could've guessed the person who made 1,000+ scratch projects when they were a kid enjoys real coding haha.. well anyways. I am struggling to understand what to write for future digital diary entries because Well I am generally just really picky about what I let people know about myself, which is probably something I should work on, but half the time I really don't see a reason to. I sincerely value having things that are distinctly Mine and when other people know me intimately I feel less like I belong to myself.. it's scary and hard to understand for most people I try explaining it to. but part of me really deeply craves to be known and comforted still. but again, I'm terribly picky and I refuse to open myself up unless I feel very safe in doing so. because many many times have I attempted to open up and it ended feeling more like being disgustingly flayed... but I suppose I am opening up right now. Please treat me kindly dear reader...
I am debating posting some of my poems here. I really enjoy writing, I'm extremely amatuer at it, but having fun. although everything I write is like.. insanely personal. it's another battle of wanting to share my art and have it be understood, related to, loved, yet not wanting to be known. ideally some strangers would read them and say yes, I relate to this, I understand you, thank you for putting your work into the world but that is quite idealistic. However Everything worthwhile requires a degree of embarrassment! I guess I just want to show people myself but I only ever want it to work out perfectly.. I am kind of sick of trying to open up only to be met with awkwardness and no empathy, no relation of experience. I want to be understood! related to! :( it's lonely. I am constantly seeking out qualities or experiences within my friends that align with me... and well I don't really want to show my poems to people who I know won't personally empathize with the subject matter. OOOOkkay can I just stop being picky and be normal .. lol ok. I am such a rambler.. Goodbye dear reader :) Check back again soon ... xoxo